923130 - july 3, 09

to other people their mp3's or other trinkets might not be that important,
but to me, they're very important. guess what, i've lost 2 important things
given to me by people i care about and love. first my necklace, two
pendants, 1 given to me by my mom and 1 given to me by a very
old friend. second, my mp3 player given to me by my parents or
"santa clause". both were very precious and expensive. i can't
believe i lost them, but it is my fault i lost it. i was the one who
didn't keep track of them and just freaking. gawd, i wish it would just
magically appear in front of my face...but it wont dammit. gawd, it
was so fucking expensive and precious, but i lost it. gawd.
i don't understand. what's going to be next?
what am i going to fucking loose next?!